Feeling 17 again.

First let me say "wow" as I'm still in shock.

There comes a time in most young men's lives when he gets a crush on a girl.
I was 17 when a got an almost obessive crush on a very attractive 15 yearold.

Trouble is the shy computer geek and the attractive popular girl only ever get together in the movies; real life doesn't always have the happy ending.
Well several years on, I feel I'm a much different person, but I walk out of a shop this morning and there she is.
85,000 people on this island and our paths cross... I feel that cold rush in my abdomen that signals my adrenal glands emptying themselves.

I did a non-too subtle double-take and thankfully my feet kept on walking me toward my motorbike.  It was like being 17 all over again.  For some reason the normally simple operation of putting the key in the ignition evades me.  I wanted to say something, anything.  "Um, Hi!" No that seemed stupid.  "Hello."  Too terse.  I look over my shoulder, and she's already walking away.
Noooo. Denied!

The adrenalin takes hold and now I'm shaking.  It doesn't seem real.  Starting to feel stupid, I get on the bike and go home.

It's amazing the effect certain people can have on you.  What a day; and it's still only 1pm.